Baby, IT'S ON!!!!

Well ladies and gentlemen, I'm finally over the illness that has plagued me for the last week. And you know what that means...not only am I able to clean the house for Mom's return (yayyyyy...) but I've, once again, started THE CLEANSE!!!!! I have my HoodiThin, my lemonade and because of my beautiful friend Naomi (love you girl!) I DON'T HAVE TO PUT THE CAYENNE PEPPER IN MY LEMONADE!!! She got the brilliant idea to buy gelatin capsules and put the cayenne pepper in there! It's brilliant because having to drink the pepper? HELL ON EARTH! So I'm all set to go and I'm way excited about it and the best thing? My 10th day is going to be next week on Thursday! Which means that if I feel like having a steamer from Starbucks while waiting in line for the midnight showing of TWILIGHT(!!!!) I can! I'm not sure that I will as this cleanse is supposed to take away all cravings for sugar and junk food (I cannot say enough how excited I am about that) but we'll see. Wish me luck and this time I really will keep you informed!!! :-D

I can tell you this, this morning while juicing my lemons I was SOOO hungry. You know that feeling when you're stomach is so empty that it feels like it's eating itself? It's wonderful right? Well only 10 minutes after drinking the HoodiThin and my first glass of lemonade of the day it was gone!! I'm not feeling overwhelmingly hungry anymore! It's WONDERFUL!!!

The remnents of my lemons for my day's supply of lemonade! :-)



This is ALL that's going in my stomach for the next 10 days!

Update on Master Cleanse

SOOOO I know I said that I'd be blogging everyday since I started that but...I only lasted 2 days. I started my period and I simply couldn't handle it! Now I've been sick for the past 5 days. So I'm going to wait this cold out before I start again, otherwise I know I'll be asking for failure! I'll keep you all updated!! :-)

THE MASTER CLEANSE and fun with Tori!

Well, I have been officially chastised for not blogging more. So thank you Molly, and I will try to do better! First an update on my life! I'm not in school this semester as there was an issue with my financial aid and I was dropped from my classes before I realized it, and by that time came around they were all full. So...I'm having fun with Tori while not in school! (And SO incredibly bored! I can't wait for spring semester!) My mom is in China and it's so crazy not having her here! We all miss her mucho and are ready for her to come home!

Ok, one story about Tori and then I'll get into the MASTER CLEANSE I'm sure you all are wondering about! So Tori was in bed and I was...ah, I think reading a book or something. All of a sudden I heard her shriek in terror and I raced up the stairs wondering what on earth could be wrong. I opened her door and my heart broke when I saw her! She was huddled behind her door crying her heart out! I opened my arms and she ran into them and when I asked her what was wrong, she pointed to the corner of her room above her bed and said, "That monster is scary!" My baby had her first monster in her room, and it wasn't even under her bed! So I walked over to the corner and grabbed at the air, pretending I was grabbing for the monster. It made her giggle (which was, of course, the whole purpose) and after 2 grabs I had the monster! We both went to the toilet and flushed the monster away. It was so sweet and I loved every minute of that particular Mommy experience.

Now onto the MASTER CLEANSE!!! After much thought and consideration, I have decided to participate in the Master Cleanse, also known as the Lemonade Diet. Why am I doing this you ask? Because it is the most effective detox method on the planet! You do it for only 10 days and it completely flushes your system! You rid your body of the toxins caused by pollution, junk food and just the crap from daily living. It rids your face and body of acne like nothing else will, and it also curbs cravings for junk food! It's like resetting your body and ridding it of the memory of how wonderful chocolate or a big juicy hamburger is. All you think about are apples and carrots! So I'm very excited about it, and I'm actually on Day 2! I will be blogging about this while I'm doing it and I'll attempt to write every day! So be expecting another one from me tonight! :-D

Weddings and Breakfast Cookies!

Well she did it. My best friend got married. And Tori and I were in the wedding! Maid of Honor and Flower Girl, you can't ask for more in a family of two! :-P


Tori was having some serious low blood sugar issues...as you can tell from these pictures!

Grrr...leave me alone while I'm eating my breakfast cookie!

There's the beautiful smile we've all been waiting for!

It was a beautiful wedding, and while I will miss my Pancake, I can't deny that I'm very excited for her to embark on this next stage of her life! I love her forever and can't wait to see her in December!

Fun Game

1. As you comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you. If you don't want to play on your blog, or if you don't have a blog, I'll leave my memory of you in my comments.

It's fun! I hope you do it! :-D

Pottytraining and Moving

I have decided that potty training is one of the worst jobs for a mother. I saw a Today show about a woman who runs a "booty camp" where she potty trains kids in ONE DAY! She kind of explained how she did it; feeding them salty snacks and sugary drinks, making them responsible for their own messes, and always praising whenever they went in the potty. So I decided to try it! Well, 3 urinations on the carpet and 2 1/2 cans of root beer later, Mommy gave up. Tori wasn't wanting to go, I was having to bribe her with watching Dora and Diego, and quite frankly, I was getting bored. So I've decided that I'm going to wait until she's 5 and incredibly embarrassed that she's still in diapers. Or maybe I'll start after she's 3. After all, I'm certainly going to get sick of changing poopy diapers eventually...

Recently, for those of you who don't know, I have been contemplating the idea of moving to Utah and going to USU next year. I'd be moving next summer and I'm getting pretty excited about the idea. I know, rather surprising coming from the girl who once swore that she'd NEVER move to Utah, but I figure that living there for a few years couldn't hurt. Be around family and my many friends who live there. I will admit though, I'm also considering moving there and just working. I'm sad to say that I'm getting pretty burnt out with school. I'm 23 and all my friends are moving onto their careers and I'm still in school studying. I'm considering contacting Concorde to enroll in a refresher course and then taking the certification exam to become an officially certified Phlebotomist and Medical Assistant. That is a career I would really enjoy, although I'm not sure how much they make in Utah. So we'll see. I'm definitely going to call Concorde to find out just how much that costs, and if it's not to expensive I'm going to do it. I've needed to do it for a long time; I really don't want that 7 1/2 month, $10,000 education to go to waste. I'm not too worried about supporting myself and Tori; as long as I find a good job out there I'll be fine. I did some calculating last night and as long as I save only $300/mo, adding in my tax refund I'll get for next year, I'll be moving out there with a pretty good chunk of change. I am, however, pretty worried about taking Tori away from her Nana. I know kids are really able to bounce back, but I know it would be really hard on her. She's lived with Nana and Papa since she was born. It'd really be hard on both of us. So keep us in your prayers, and we'll see what happens!! = )

Contemplations and updates...

Well, I'm sitting here typing in my blog when I should be doing homework. LOL, how is this such a surprise?! I just wanted to type my thoughts and my thoughts are these. One, no matter how badly our hearts are broken they always have the capacity to heal. There may be a scar, but they can heal well enough that we can get through each day without the pain of heartache, which is a great blessing. And after they are healed we are able to find joy in the little things again. I've made a decision, and that is that I am going to fill this blog with good things from now on. Well, unless something bad happens. ;-) So here I go, talking about only the good!

I'm starting summer semester right now and I really don't think it's going to be nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be. But no matter how hard it turns out to be, it's going to be worth it because it means I can graduate after fall semester! YAY!!! Well, graduate from the community college, after which I will be applying to Metro and CU-Denver for the spring. I'm pretty excited; I've been stuck at this community college far too long. It's time to stretch my wings and try something else! I'm also still working at Quiznos; the job pretty much sucks most of the time but you just can't beat having a friend as your boss and being able to pretty much set your own hours.

So I'm working part-time, going to school full-time, and I'm also a single mommy! For all you married mommies out there, you have NO IDEA!!! Only other single moms can appreciate how badly I long for a husband sometimes; not for the love and protection part, but just so SOMEONE ELSE CAN PUT HER TO BED!!! Someone to pass her off to when she starts driving me nuts!!! I'm pretty proud of myself though; I think I'm doing a pretty good job considering how much time I get to spend with her. I miss her though; this summer I'm putting in full days on Mondays and Wednesdays from 8am to 10pm, with pretty much all of that spent away from my baby. Today really sucked; I didn't get to see her at all. She was asleep when I left for school, and asleep when I left for work! I saw her for 5 min when I went to tuck her into bed tonight. Oh well, I'll probably be taking her to the zoo tomorrow so that should make up for today! :-)

Speaking of Tori, I'll bet there are those out there who are wondering how she is! She is becoming such a big girl now! What am I talking about, she IS a big girl! A big girl who is talking like no other kid her age I've ever seen. Last night, for example, I was sitting on the chair reading and she came up to me and started rubbing my arm and said this, "I go get your purse and get some gum, ok sweetiepie?" I stared in shock; she's 2 1/2 years old and she's saying SWEETIEPIE?! What the crap? I started laughing so hard; it's moments like those when I can't help giving her whatever she wants! Good thing those don't happen TOO often...Ok, so here's a really cute story. On Sundays I don't let her watch her favorite shows, which just happen to be Diego and Dora (surprise, surprise), because it's Heavenly Father's day and we only watch church movies. Well, two weeks ago, on the last Sunday of May, I decided to break my own rule. Tori had had a late nap and we were all going to play cards and I really wanted her to stay occupied. So I asked Tori if she wanted to watch a Diego movie. At first she said YES, and then she stopped. She looked at me, cocked her head and said sternly, "Mommy, I can't watch Diego today. It's SUNDAY." I just stared at her, shocked, and then I burst out laughing, gave her a hug, apologized and turned on a church movie for her. Just a little lesson for me that they ARE listening even if they never show it. It was adorable. I love that girl more than life.

I heard a Kenny Chesney song a few days ago that made me cry. It's from the perspective of a teenage boy who got a girl pregnant and realized he was going to be a daddy. At first he was kissing all his dreams goodbye and it says, "there goes my life, there goes my future...i might as well kiss it all goodbye." Then he goes to when the baby girl is 3 and he's watching her toddle upstairs to get tucked in by her mommy and he sings it again, with an entirely new meaning. While he's watching her walk up the stairs he says, "there goes my life, there goes my future..." I took that song to heart immediately. Tori has become my life; she is my everything and I can't imagine me without her. I am so grateful to have her, no matter how hard it may be, and I feel so blessed to have been trusted with the task of raising such an incredible daughter of God. I want to thank everyone who has been there for me, my friends and family. I couldn't have done it without you and I love you all so much! Until next time, adieu!

P.S. Props to Heather for commenting. I love you too! :-)